"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as
the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be
afraid." John 14:27
Hear
my prayer, O Lord, and let my cry come unto thee. Hide not thy face
from me in the day when I am in trouble; incline thine ear unto me:
in the day when I call answer me speedily. Psalm 102:1-2
I am imperfect. I am weak. I am lazy, scattered. I upset people, I can't make them happy. I leave people with regrets, fears, shame. I disappoint people, I leave them stranded.
Have I really left things so poorly?
I am not so dry and pristine as you think. I am war torn and struggling
to find a grip hold. I am living by the only way I know.
Why me? Why now? Why here?
God, what is your plan? Please guide me. I'm scared.
I guess what pains me the most is that we care about each other so much but we still harbor so much negative emotion towards each other. Can't we just focus on what matters?